This semester is finally finished and it seems as though i would never make it!! but i did thanks to the Lord cause he only knows how i did it. As i reflect through this semester i would say that it has started and ended way better than last year... that's a different post lol.... my self esteem has really improved and i think its because I'm on my on i live in a dorm by myself, im pretty much independent... but on the real i get lonely b/c i don't have any one to talk to at the end of a long day i go to my room by myself. like the saying says "you never know how strong you are until strong is the only thing you have left" or something to that nature. This semester i thrived on the weekends b/c on the weekdays a life did not exist i didnt see my friends until the weekends which was when we partied woot woot. I met BOYS but for some reason that is still my problem area... Well... actually i know why that's a problem area LOL, i do not know how to talk to guys unless I'm drunk... smh,... I KNOW!!! Crazy right... but im just being real when im drunk i dont think i don't second guess myself i have officially reached a level where i dont care and can just be my outgoing sometimes obnoxious self. The problem is i do not know which steps i need to take to get to my care-free-simply-me-self. But thats just a little about my thoughts of the day

Reveltation:
I need to learn who i am and i honestly dont know what the first step is

Prayer:
Dear God as i go on this journey of self discovery i need you more than ever please offer guidance and revelations ... especially in the boy area