Pick yo-self up

Im worth a lot and im afraid others wont think that but im on the right track and I deserve a man FUCK if im different r blonde sometimes who the fuck isn't. but WHO CARES I will find a man NOW not when I move from KS but now I deserve happiness and its me that's in the way the next man I see I need to take initiative and get over it im worth a million bucks and hed be lucky to have a dollar!!!!

I DO GIVE A FUUUUUH-CK

Im over everything and everyone!!!! I cant get no man and that's that im over it maybe im not trying hard enough BUT I DON'T GIVE A FUUUUUUH-CK anymore. I cant give a fuck no more bout no dumb ass niggas. Im bout to play this game and when I play im bout in it to win it.

Goal 1)

Find somebody I am attracted to

Help

For some strange freakin reason im turning into a blond idk what the deal is but its pissing me off. Im not stupid but I think im coming off that way and LORD help. Speaking of which I need to get back in the bible. But ok so last night I hung out with the boys again but this wasn't as fun honestly all Him/crush. Wanted to do was FUCK and im not with that he skipped past kissing and all that other shit. I just don't know what to do anymore. Lord help I know it has been a minute and I really need to work on that . I think that's also a big part of my unhappiness it just feels like something is missing from my life spiritually and in other aspects and I think it's the Lord and our relationship. Lord knows I wanted my Crush but I just don't think that's gonna happen. He seems kinda jerky.

Just another single girl moment

Maybe- drunken decision

So maybe I missed my chance…

Maybe it doesn't matter anymore

Im alone and it seems that's how its gonna be

Big Update

 

Ok so he did text me happy new years which I am extremely happy about lol and ive decided I need to take a big step forward to get the outcome I need.

Resolutions:

• What happened in the past with Curtis should no longer be an excuse not to have relationships and talk and suggest things with boys im grown and I have a lot to offer any body rejection is what helps you grow and I think im coming to realize that. " you never know until you try"
  
• My weight I need to maintain working out my goal weight Is 130 I mean I do like being curvy but i don't want to be this big.
  

 

So ive also been praying everyday about him and I pray God will give me another opportunity and him the courage to approach me and to take away the awkwardness that what ever conversation we have be taken away

AMEN